Monday, January 25, 2010

Choices Amidst Uncertainty

Continued from last post...
How was I to proceed with life during this time of uncertainty? My heart was to serve God to the fullest with however I was able to at any given point and time; but if He called me to travel through the Middle East could I commit to long term plans that would conflict with this potential calling? For instance I already felt led to attend Bethel Seminary, via distance education, so should I proceed along with this plan?
The predicament of not knowing where God was going to call me placed me in a quagmire of difficult decisions. After praying about the wisest strategy I decided to continue on with my life, as I had felt led to live prior to the Middle East question; this included attending Bethel Seminary, continuing with my work as one of the youth pastors at Great Lakes Church, working my registration job at the hospital, and most importantly providing moral support to my precious wife as she is submersed in medical school. I purposed to do all of these, but with the knowledge that at any moment God may ask me to leave.
Because of this possibility I opened up an exit strategy for everything that I was involved with. Throughout everyday life I left open the avenue for quick departure if called. For me, obedience was more important than anything else life had to offer. The scripture that God was searing into my heart was that He wanted me to hate everything in life in comparison with the love that I had for Him (Luke 14:26). I believe He wanted to place me through the process of choosing wisely with life's decisions; by continuously prioritizing His future calling (whenever it would come, and however it would look) in my DNA, where He consistently took first place, where His voice was truly the only substance that I looked to for guidance, and where I lived for Him above all else.
Then, He called me in the strongest way that I've yet heard Him speak.

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